I AM NOT RETIRED
I am not going gentle into that good night. I will not spend my days on the recliner sofa eating bon-bons until Death comes to call.
I AM… REALLY TIRED
Of failing to be the person others said I’m supposed to be instead of embracing the person I am
Of leading a life chasing status and shitting on myself for not being enough
Of buying into society’s expectations for high achievers
Of doing the work I am good at instead of work that brings me joy.
I WANT MY SOUL TO REFIRE
To be open to new paths and fresh self-expression
To have new energy in my feet as I move forward
To collaborate joyfully with people who share my values
To be in service to something greater than myself.
SO MY THINKING HAS TO REWIRE
My old thinking scolded, You’ve left things unfinished. You could have, should have done more to build your business. You’re a nobody if you’re not a practicing attorney. WHO CARES? My energy and passion for it was finished. I can only grow by coming to the end of something and by beginning something else. I must let go of the life I had planned to accept the life that is waiting for me. As Andre Gide said, I won’t discover new lands if I don’t consent to lose sight of the shore. And if not now, when?
BECAUSE MY HEART HAS A NEW DESIRE
God said, Go forth from where you started. Move on from your roots and all the expectations that shaped the person you are right now. When you do, you will be blessed. Your name will be great for you will be a blessing to others. So that’s the plan. I don’t know where I’m being led or how long the journey will take, but that’s okay. I am never too old to set a new goal or dream a new dream.
THIS TRANSFORMATION DOES REQUIRE THAT I
Reclaim my spirit of adventure
Revive my childlike sense of wonder
Release the habits, thinking, and assumptions that no longer serve me
Explore the possibilities.